Hi peepo!
By right i shouldnt show up here, at this very crucial and "gam jiong" timing as the EXAM is just two days ahead!
What brought me here, i guess is the urge to release some inner thoughts that i kept inside my heart and always not good at releasing it out, and this is apparently become a major issue of the becoming of emotional kid of me, now.
I am struggling, so hard to get myself reach the target i set for myself,
So hard that i barely can feel my own desireness of doing things i like, but always coach myself and tighten myself up with a lot of obligation and responsibilities towards myself and my family.
As i always mention here,
that i have to sponsor myself the Acca course i am carrying now,
by working all the time, and study time has to be well-allocated, to balance the both area that lead my path.
And if anyone of you pay attention on my daily routine and recent activities,
U all will probably wondering :
what the hell that Joanne Yeo is doing huh? I thought her exam is coming soon, (her so-called-super-important-exam) and yet she is busying doing events, fairs and many many jobs? She doesnt care of her study at all?
This is actually the conflict i facing lately,
To be able to save enough money for few thousands in 2 months for next semester school fee,
WHO THE HELL CAN DO THAT WHEN SHE IS A FULL TIME STUDENT?
I do not fancy on doing modelling jobs or Uob bank credit card,
I have my own dream, my ultimate goal to be achieved, and this both is the stepping stone that i used to get there,
but there is a huge and frequent conflict between this both area, which is equally important as far as u concern.
That is why i almost having mentally breakdown lately, Stress is a huge culprit.
If u ask me to cry instantly, trust me, i can do it just like single second or two.
But i barely allow myself to breakdown and collapse,
Not because i hate to show that i am vulnerable, i am fragile,
But it is because i HAVE NO TIME to cry!
See, how pathetic this girl is, no time to cry , so exaggerate meh? (some people will normally think like that)
but, seriously, i hold on too much things inside, and its almost cant take it anymore,
so, releasing it is a right way to do so.
and I am done releasing my bragging on my life, and so, now i should head back to study desk and continue my revision session.
I have spent my last 15 mins typing this all,
good to spill them out,
anyone of you reading this, i would like to thanks u guys, yes, indirectly you guys has becoming my listener,
whereas in real life, for me to say these out to my friends has becoming a very hard things to do,
Thanks, and wish me luck in my exam,
Spending my own money for study and exam fees mean really a lot,
i do not wish to fail any papers as i dont want to waste a single cent of money i earn.
and for those who still as a student, please study hard ,
dont waste your parents money, you are lucky already :)
thanks once again, i shall see u guys once i finish my exam next week,
Tata♥
